When I first started this year, I had many grand ideas as to what I would be doing this year. As always, I knew some of these would be fulfilled easy-peasy (whatever that means), some would see completion in entirely different ways cause God’s funny like that, and of course some things would show themselves to be silly in comparison to God’s plan. (Prov 16:9)
In other words: I’m smart enough to know that I’m not smart enough to know much. As is true to experience, God has puzzled me a hundred times over, blessed me infinite times over, and very few things have ended up like I planned.
One thing I resolved was to utilize this blog platform as a way to stay in touch better with those who’ve been such a blessing in my life and ministry, and have cared, provided, and guided me in many ways. I thought I’d do this by posting an “update” each month, but quickly found I was just talking highlights and not really getting in to the thick of it. I quit that in March, and funny thing, God romped on the gas pedal shortly after.
Here is just a super brief fly-over summary as to what’s gone down the last 6 months, why the blog went silent the last two, and where I am sitting now… with mixed feelings.
The Steps He’s Determined / Is Determining
They say hindsight is 20/20, but there’s many missing factors from that equation. How much “hind” you’re looking at is important to that sight I’m pretty sure. Here’s just the steps I’m aware of, with a bit of clarity where I can grasp it.
- Through a variety of events, relational conflicts, blessings, new relationships, and personal sin even, God really finalized the untethering of our hearts to the collegiate ministry we were serving with and that had been such an amazing tool in my growth.
- The church (CrossPoint) I was pastoring with continued to be an amazing point of blessing, learning, and networking that I’ll forever be grateful for. I can’t for the life of me figure out why God allowed that to happen yet, but I’m indescribably grateful. I met some great men, and was provided some amazing opportunities to expand my horizons on future possibilities of ministry as well as be invested in.
- Wife and I flew, drove, traveled, spoke with, learned from, and looked into all sorts of men, seminary schools, church planting endeavors and more for a few months while she finished up the last of her class time at little and lovely ol’ Fort Hays State University.
- We had no idea what was supposed to decide anything so we simply went with what made the most sense and provided the greatest opportunity for us to receive some great personal investment, have our first experience of stability since, ever, and learn a great deal as we help a church grow from scratch (without being in charge of it yet). There’s also a nearby seminary school we foresee us at least beginning our masters at, Lord willing. God had made it clear that we were hungry for investment, stability, and education.
- So we made a summer move, and sight unseen have plopped ourselves into a brand new city, with brand new streets, all brand new friends and lack-of, brand new businesses and experiences and slightly new ideas as to what God might have in store for at least the near future. It’s been a load of transition and, quite frankly, a tad harder than we thought it might be. But not that hard.
- I’m ramping up a new business in this town, we’ll see how it goes… but until I know more, I’m not going to get into that on here. Let’s just say though, I could use some prayers because it’s a lot harder to do this in a town that is completely new to you. More to come on this later, and as always, get in touch if you’d like to know more.
- We’re sitting here wondering what God has in store, learning so much it feels completely overwhelming to even try to retain it all, and depending on God and support from caring people, more than we’ve ever, ever, needed to or thought we would. All in all, that’s still a pretty amazing place to be in. I feel crazy blessed still. I am crazy blessed.
- The last few points are why this blog has gone quiet… but maybe I’ll find my feet – and voice – in all these new “steps” again soon.
If you’d like to know more details, I’d be glad to share them with you whether via phone, email, or my new favorite: video chats!
Thanks for staying in touch. Thanks for your prayers. I miss so many people from the past few years and am so thankful for you as well as the new people that we are surrounded with.
I’ve never been more anxious to see, and get on with, what God has in store, but at the same time never more happy to just be quietly sitting and watching. It’s quite strange.
Keep praying… and I’d love to do the same for you. If you aren’t signed up for The Mission Partner Newsletters and you’d like to be… go do that! Those are more personal and detailed and I’ll be attempting to get that going again starting today.
How have you been and how could I be praying and/or help you? I’d love to hear from you.